My name is Mandy Watson, I am 30 years old.
I am part of Victory Christian Church in Jeffrey's Bay and I have
been mentored and had the privilege of mentoring others since I was a 19yr old
pip with no clue.
I am now a married mother of three small children and I thought we
were done with kids, until a few months ago when we felt a desire stirring for
a fourth child. God began to speak to us about being obedient in this area and
as our hearts said, "yes" everything in our heads said, "no
way".
We felt God began to speak the name and destiny of a child and
shortly after we made up our minds that it would cost us more if we didn't
follow His will for our family, we conceived.
We were so excited!!!
About 2 weeks ago in May I was about 12 or 13 weeks pregnant according
to the doctors, when things took a sudden turn.
As I laboured through the night hours, I wrestled and had the
faith to stand on the promises I had received for my fourth child but I heard
the still small voice say, “It’s okay, you can let it Go and trust me!"
With an overwhelming sense that God was right there with me, His
peace and presence comforting me, I knew it was over and I could rest in
knowing that His ways are higher than mine.
We had our tribal meeting 4 days later and up until then, although
I still felt the peace of God, I had been in a state of shock and unable to
feel my emotion.
In our meeting where I felt safe and supported, God ministered to
the deepest parts of my heart through the ladies who walk out life with me and
during the worship I was able to feel the pain and start the necessary process
of healing.
We are not always able to work these things out in our minds,
God's peace will not take away the pain but it will enable us to go through the
valley because it is the peace that surpasses all understanding and we are
prisoners of Hope.
Choosing to Worship Him despite the circumstance will also not
take away the pain, but it will help us to keep our focus in the right place
for He is our Hope, our strong tower, our deliverer and restorer and Redeemer!
He makes all things beautiful in His time!
I have heard of women who have been through such things as abortion
and miscarriages etc and they have suppressed these things by keeping it to
themselves for years and years and God's heart is for us to walk free from
these burdens which are not ours to carry!
I know I am still on my road to recovery, but I have found that freedom
and healing comes through my God and being able to trust the family and friends
that He has surrounded me with.
I value the vital relationships I have built through me2.
I am surrounded by women of faith who have intentionally given
their lives to challenge me and others to the next level through the way that
they live their lives!
Over the years I have learned Kingdom Principles and values
through me2 that have set me up for life, and the most exciting part is that it’s
not only for me it's also for my children, their children and their children's
children and of course for you and yours too!
